I had a hearing for my state disability a few weeks ago. I was represented by a lawyer and was prepped for the procedure. It took five minutes of giving my testimony before the judge stopped me and said, "I'm going to grant the claim." Three years and five minutes. The transcriptionist said, "Wait! I don't even have a page typed!" The judge said, "I think we set a record!" They all laughed. My lawyer never said a word and later told me that what transpired almost never happens. I didn't see what was so funny.
I was lucky. I had long-term disability covering me through work while I was out of work for two years. I had a steady monthly income from that. When it ran out, my doctor simply released me back to work and I got a new job. The state disability is going to cover what the long-term work disability paid out. That's what the lawyer was for...to get back the money they paid me. It was all so simple.
But I was turned down three times before a hearing was set. The same set of circumstances that led to my disability was the same issues that got me the approval in the hearing. Nothing changed. But they put me through the ringer for nearly three years waiting for it.
I see patients all the time that have been turned down. Crazy people that couldn't hold a job at a gas station, handicapped people who have trouble getting out of their houses, some people so far gone they need someone to represent them in court because they can't focus on what's happening long enough to give a straight answer. And they get turned down, again and again.
What's wrong in the system that denies these claims when they're truly warranted? When it's their money paid to Social Security in the first place? When what it's intended for goes unheeded and these people lose their homes, when they've lost their jobs and can't work? Most of the patients on my unit fighting for disability don't have insurance. We discharge them with a stack of prescriptions that we know they can't have filled. We discharge them to the street or to a homeless shelter because they've lost literally everything.
Six simple words: "I'm going to grant the claim." That's all it took. But I'm not quitting my job to go on disability. I'm able minded, so far, and I'm doing the best job I know how. I can still work and I will until it becomes necessary to stop. I'm hoping that doesn't happen.
And in the meantime, I'm praying that these poor lost souls that flock through our doors eventually hear those six simple words and get what they deserve, that they get what's theirs. It shouldn't have to be so hard.
Hi - I'm new to the support group thing online thing and the tweeting and all of that kind of stuff. I've kept myself hidden away from just about everything and people for a very long time. Now I'm on lithium and lamotrigine and am rethinking the hiding away thing I used to do. I'm disabled due to my mental illness. I haven't worked in about 7 years and have an enormous gap in my work history...but that's not exactly what I want to ask you. There's a difference between being disabled and not being disabled. Those differences are subjective to a certain extent. I'm "abled" in some ways more so than normal people but very much not so in others. I've done a lot of research but I haven't found much info on how to be disabled. How does one have confidence in their disabilities? It seems counter intuitive. I have society's biases no doubt but without a guide (not a physical one) how does one determine the boundaries of what constitues things such as what's "giving up?" Or in contrast, what's the show of strength in one's ability to ask for help? I need to get a job-they tell me to be confident in myself but nearly everything "they" need in an employee I can't give them. Have you found any info in groups, books, talking with a coffee some place about this sort of thing?
I really admire your tenacity and your idea of self. I'm not looking at you as my therapist or for you to fix anything. Just some info. Thanks for your time.
Derek, I'm typing this without my glasses on, so bear with me. You raise some interesting questions about what being "disabled" is all about. We have disabilities that people can't see, but they are very real. I never wanted to be disabled, but I was. My illness made it impossible for me to work and so I stayed home and nearly rotted to death. I did force myself to get out among people, namely, I took some classes at the local community college here. But returning to work at that time was just not possible. I'm still struggling now and I've been back to work for four months. I don't know of any groups, online or otherwise, that discuss this sort of thing. The only thing I can tell you is what some very astute people told me....get out, find something, do anything, but stop hiding. You will get lost if there's nobody out there to find you.
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